Forbidden, but Found

"We dance round in a ring and suppose,

While the secret sits in the middle and knows."

 -Robert Frost

Secrets. What is the point in them? The only kind of secret that is a good secret is the secret kept for a surprise. That is all. But, why do people keep, or try to keep other secrets? Charles Sanford put it nicely: 

"Secrets are made to be found out in time."

Today's post comes from an area of my life that has been a big secret. However, as I learn more about this secret which has recently surfaced, I realize that there were a lot of people keeping this secret. I am from a small town....so it was probably known by a lot of people. Why didn't anyone ever say anything? Why did I have to find out by myself? Why in the world was it such a big mystery that no one wanted me to solve? I may never know the answers to these questions, and I suppose I am coming to grips with that. Secrets are meant to be kept, but they rarely are. It is shocking that this particular secret was kept for as long as it was. And even now that I have discovered the truth, investigated, and took things into my own hands and let them out into the open light, it is still a forbidden topic. It's just a tad bit puzzling. But, I suppose,like most mysterious things it will always hold a bit of secrecy.

The art for today is something I created in high school. It is pencil and charcoal and was an assignment. At the time this piece had nothing to do with secrets, but when I look at it now it reminds me to live like an open box. Be true to yourself and honest with those around you, and everything will be, for the most part, wonderful.

 A long time ago I decided to try my hardest to never keep secrets that are not in the nature of a joyful surprise. Things like surprise parties, gifts, and genders of babies are perfectly ok to be a surprise. It is the things that people keep hidden for negative reasons that are terrible secrets. So I encourage each of you today to be honest, don't keep things a secret from the people who need to know the truth...and as always...it's the random reasons.

No Meat, Just Fluff

Hello! Hope you all are wonderful today! So as today's title suggests, I will not be posting anything of substance in the main blog portion today. However, I have added some photos and other posts to some of the pages on the blog. So, if you are looking for something to glance at while trying to keep from dying of boredom at the desk (wait, that would be me), then check out these pages:

1. Domus Mea:  It is going to allow you to creep on what is going on with my new apartment.
2. FinishedBliss:  My own personal art gallery, well a few of my favorite works anyways.
3. GiggleBox:  You need to laugh everyday. It is good for you, so just do it.
4. SuperHero:  A little insight into what is really important to me at this moment in my life.

So, if you are wanting a little marshmallow cream today, look at the pages and I look forward to posting something in the form of steak at a later date. :)

Oh, and always remember that sometimes we need a break from the norm, and that it is completely ok to have marshmallow cream for breakfast, and, as always...remember, it's the random reasons.

Toes

This last weekend I was able to escape the hustle and bustle of finals week by going to see some of my family in the southwest corner of Oklahoma. We planned to go to Lake Altus, but after sitting in the cold and rain for 45 minutes we decided to retreat to Hollis where my grandparents live. This was my second time to be there and just like the first time there wasn't a tad bit of awkwardness. It was great, well, there were a lot of hugs, but I have come to expect that. I met some of the family that I had not yet been able to meet, and got to spend some time with three of my brothers. Kanyon had been to prom and was having a lot of trouble staying awake, so he was, of course, the entertainment provider.

This weekend will stand out in my mind for many reasons. Since I can only count a handful of times that I have been with this side of my family, all of the time I spend with them is very new and memorable. However, this weekend was a little revealing. It was exciting--for me at least. I was mistaken for my aunt by my grandpa. This is not the first time that we have been said to "look-a-like," and he corrected himself very quickly, but it did bring a smile to my face. Haha, that sounds terribly weird. It is like I am saying that I enjoy being confused for someone else, but I assure you, I don't. This is a little different though. The next memorable moment about this weekend was when I was trying on my new Ugg boots. I had taken off my shoe (I was wearing flats with no socks) and my grandma stopped me. I thought she was looking at my toes which were in horrible need of a pedicure, but instead she was looking at my whole foot, including my toes. Apparently, my foot, which I have been made fun of my other members of my family, it a genetic thing. So...we bonded over my feet. Odd, but great. My grandma gave me some of my great-grandmother's costume jewelry and my great-great-grandmother's watch. I wanted to cry as she told me about some of the pieces. Thankfully I was able to stay composed. The feeling of being included did not leave though, and it actually still hanging around. I am absolutely in love with this new chapter of my life. I have so many people who love and care for me, so many people that I get to love and care for, and while this has always been true, my family has almost doubled and so has the love.

Sometimes it is the feeling of being loved and included that makes you smile. It hugs you and promises to never let go, and that is what matter in this life. So remember, as you go about your day, don't forget to love someone and to include them in your life, and always remember...it's the random reasons...